Some Things Never Change

Lou put on her sneakers and decided to go jogging, this was her catharsis. She sobbed loudly with tears streaming down her face. As she ran, ignoring people’s raised eyebrow and inquiries as to whether she was alright.

She ran for a few hour, oblivious to the miles and distance she cover. Her iPod blared the most depressing songs of heartbreak that added to her depression. Normally these songs gave her great pleasure until she could finally relate to them but not in a good way. She mentally listed all the reasons it was important to stay away from Wayne. He drove her wild with hot s*x. He had the cutest dimples when he smiled that disarmed her and made her forget what a charming snake he was. He was a drug dealer and hung out with criminals.

She never in a million years thought she would mix business with pleasure by sleeping with someone at her work place. Especially a new job that she actually enjoyed. He led her into a life of deception. Neither of them wanted to lose their jobs and felt that if people on set found out they were sleeping together it could cause conflict. She felt like she had crossed the finish line with him and he had broken her heart. She felt ten times a fool, so naïve and trusting of a man she hardly knew. Wayne was different from all the men she had ever dated in the past. He was complicated by nature and could be very honest.

She felt that everything he told her wasn’t a lie there was some aspects of truth in his statements but it’s as if she had to read between lines. She didn’t want to be the only one putting her all into the relationship either. He had to show his commitment to them by giving up his criminal activity, that was the only way things could work out between them. He kept company with street thugs that had mean and nasty attitudes. She didn’t think she was being judgmental. She recalled how scared she was that night she went to Wayne’s hookah party. She could have gotten hurt or got trampled in the stamped that erupted when the cops came on the scene. She wanted to have kids later on in life. She wanted them to grow up with a dependable father who they could trust and count on. She really doubted at this moment that Wayne was husband material much less daddy potential.

He was always picture perfect and the epitome of handsomeness. He knew his worth and his arrogance knew no bounds. She found herself battling his pride more than everything else. He could be just as stubborn and independent as she when he wanted to be. Would that be a problem for them later on in life? She wondered if also, due to his handsomeness, she would have to ward women off him for the rest of her life. She admitted that she had a very possessive and jealous streak. Women would give the panties off their pu*sy to date him. He had only to crook his middle finger at them and they would come running. She wondered how she would react if he cheated on her. Some things were always best not to think about or it would drive Lou insane.

Lou softened when she recalled the way he looked at her when he apologized for hurting her feelings. She had to believe that the good in him would make things work out between them in the end. All negativity faded when she duly noted the main thing. He loved and cared for her, it was there in the way he looked at her and his actions even if he had yet to say it. Instinctively she knew that he felt the same way about her that she did for him. They enjoyed each other’s company so much that they always hated to part whenever the outing came to an end. These upcoming two weeks were going to be torture on her libido. She had gotten used to the active s*x life they had both been leading these last few weeks.

The always wanted to spend each waking moment in each other company, that kind of love was fleeting since neither of them were blind to each other’s fault, but equally accepting. There was just something about Wayne that enticed her, drew her to him, she couldn’t put a finger on it but it was there in the way he breathed and the touch of his skin against hers. Whenever they had s*x it was mind blowing, org*smic, and full of passion. She never ever felt that wanton with anyone else nor had she been eager to leave her comfort zone but with Wayne she was willing to try anything he threw her direction. He could have asked her to jump and she would say how high.

After she finished jogging she went in and took a quick shower.

Just think about Wayne had exhausted her more mentally than that of the jogging. She wanted to sleep so badly but her mind was unsettled. There was no rest for the weary. She put on some hot chocolate, the warmth of the mug and the steam that came out of it was a soothing experience for her. She wondered what it would be like to grow old with Wayne by her side. No matter how she tried to think about other mundane topics, her mind always came back to rest on Wayne. It was definitely going to be a long and dry two weeks. Eventually she got tired of fighting the sleep and fell asleep in her bed.