A Vampire To Love

Chapter 2

The drive was boring to say the least.  It was probably one of the most boring drives that I’ve ever been on, and I was not in the mood to deal with this.  We continued to go, but the problem was we didn’t have enough gas.  I could feel the urge to feed was starting to come over me once again, but I didn’t know what to do about it.  My dark skin was becoming paler than usual, and Donte realized this.  He looked at me, handing me a bag of blood.  I drank it up, and the urge to kill was once again gone.  I was happy about that, but the next issue at hand was the one that I was worried about.

It was the fact that I was going towards one of the cities that I never imagined I would be back at.  My hometown.  I never thought I would come back, and to be honest I never had the desire to.  This place held a ton of bad memories, but it also held some good ones too.  We continued to drive until we stopped at the side of the road.  Donte looked at the gas gauge, wondering what to do next.

“Sh*t.  I need to get some gas,” he said.

“What are we going to do?” I asked.

“I think there’s a person who might be able to help me here.  A guy named Cameron.  He was one of the other vampires that turned against Raphael.  They chased after him, but so far he’s been able to lay low as a gas station attendant.  I heard he was still here as of a couple months ago, but I didn’t know if we would be able to use him.  Things might’ve changed, but I think he’s still here.  My intuition on this is strong,” he admitted.

I nodded, thinking this would all work out.  I wasn’t sure to say the least, but I did want to believe him.  I decided to take a chance, to see if he would really be here.  I nodded, and soon we walked away from the car.  I walked for about a mile, nightfall getting close.  I looked at the sign of the town in front of me, immediately stopping and staring at it.

“Holy sh*t,” I said.

“What’s up?” he asked.

“This is my hometown.  I lived here for the longest time,” I admitted.  Immediately, I could feel the feelings that I used to have for this place take over, a feeling that I hated but loved at the same time.  I had mixed feelings about this town, but I know that the feeling of coming back would triumph.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

“I don’t know.  I just feel like this place is going to bring back all the memories that I’ve been trying to bury for a long time.  I hate it, but I know that there is no way I’ll be able to suppress this.  I used to live here, and all of the worrisome feelings that I used to have are starting to come back to me in full force,” I admitted.

“Well, we can make this trip quick.  I know how it feels, but we can just get the gas and move on,” he replied.

I wanted to agree to that, but at the same time I wanted to do more.  I wanted to do something that I never imagined I would ever want to do.

I wanted to see my family.

I had a hard life.  My mom was a bi*ch, and my dad was too busy getting drunk and working on the farm to give a damn about me.  I was all alone for the most part, and I didn’t like the way things used to be with us.  That was the reason why I left home at such an early age.  I made sure I was able to go to college in the town I was in before. I knew that if I did that, I would be able to have a better life.  One that was happy and full of life.  I knew that was the way to go for me, this place held some of the worst memories that I had, and it wasn’t the place for a child to grow up.  Especially with the dad I had.

I felt the urge to cry just now, but I bit my lip.  If I needed to I would, but I didn’t want to at the present moment.  We continued walking, but as I got into town I could feel the memories flooding back.  The memories of being treated badly at school, the memories of the bullies picking on me, and even the memories of my mom telling me I deserved all of the abuse that I got.  I hated it, and I could feel those bad memories start to take over and make me feel like sh*t.  I hated it, but I knew that those were a part of my past.  They weren’t something that could ever go away.

Donte noticed that I was dead silent.  He grabbed me and pulled me into his arms.  I felt bad, but I knew that it was something that happened in my past.  I can’t run away from it, so I knew that it was going to stay with me.  I needed to think about something else to help ease my mind, but at this point I had nothing.

“What’s wrong Alice?  Is it really that hard to go through this place?  I can leave you in the car if you want,” Donte offered.

I shook my head.  “No.  I need to stay with you.  I don’t want to be left alone,” I demanded.  I knew that sounded selfish as fu*k, but I didn’t want to be left alone.  I was scared of some other vampire trying to bother me or something.  I didn’t want that; I wanted him with me.

“It’s nothing.  I’ll tell you later,” I replied.

He nodded, trying to understand my whole mentality behind it.  Of course, I didn’t know what else to tell him.  I didn’t know what he was going to think of the fact that I was scared of coming back due to the fact that I had so many bad memories here.  I knew that it was all in the past, but I was having a hard time letting it go.  We continued walking, neither of us really saying anything.

I saw everything on our walk to the gas station.  I almost felt like it was a walk of shame or something, a showing of all the bullsh*t that happened here in the past, and all of the sh*t that I left behind.  Nothing changed, which is probably why this place bothered me so much.  There never was change, and I know that it wasn’t going to ever change.  We walked by the schoolhouse, and when I saw it I was shocked at the way it hadn’t changed.  It looked even more run-down that it was before.  Then again, I didn’t think they would bother to change anything here.  It’s my old life, and I knew that nothing was going to differ.

I went by some of the old restaurants, and it was all the same old story.  They did get a couple of new fast food places, but other than that there was nothing here.  What’s the point of even checking this place out?  I wasn’t going to stick around here and attempt to make a life in a hellhole like this.