A Woman Turned

Chapter 4

I continued to sit in the park and thought back to Ryan. He looked shocked, but at the same time I noticed something else with him. He was disgusted, and I hated seeing that side of him. I didn’t think he would be that offended, but apparently he was. I hated it, and I just wanted it to be erased from my mind forever.

I hated this. I thought I might get accepted when I turned. But it seemed that he didn’t care. He thought I was disgusting. He thought I was a disaster, and I know that he wasn’t happy with this as well. It was over for us, I’m sure of it. I wanted to end this now before I felt even more pain later on.

I thought about how to do this. I didn’t have a phone because Raphael took it from me, but I also knew that if I went back over there I could endanger my life. I had to tell him though that this was over. There was no way I could continue a relationship like this. I was scared to, especially after everything that has happened.

 I still felt hurt. I was scared of what was going to happen to me now. Would I ever be able to return to a normal life? Or was this the end of it? I didn’t think I could handle it at this point. After all, it seemed to me that everything was turning for the worst now. I hated it, but that’s the way life happens. It su*ks, and then you die.

Of course, as a vampire I don’t die.

That was another thing. I felt like everything changed just because of this one thing. I couldn’t believe that one little thing in my life could change everything. I knew Ryan and I were over. I couldn’t go back to that, especially after the way he looked at me. I would just have to move on, and I would think of something.

I thought about what to do. The best thing at this point would be to go back to my apartment and call Ryan. I would tell him that I’m done, that there was no way I could keep up this façade. I might cry again, but I had to let him go. It was killing me as much as it was probably killing him.

I sat under the trees and sobbed. I heard a rustle in the distance, but I didn’t think anything of it. It was probably just some tiny little animal or something. All of a sudden though, I heard something coming closer. What the hell was that? What did that creature want with me?

I put my guard up. I felt weak, and it wasn’t just because of what happened. I probably needed to feed again, the little taste of blood wasn’t enough for me. I know I didn’t break the skin, but I could taste his blood under there. It tasted delectable, but I know that I can’t have it.

I sat up and prepared myself. I hoped to god it wasn’t one of Raphael’s guards.

To my surprise, it was someone else altogether. It was Donte, and he looked at me with a shocked expression when he saw me. I could tell he was worried, and judging from the look on his face I bet I gave him a scare.

“Are you okay? You look like crap,” he said.

I blushed when he said those words. He wasn’t the most poetic, but he was a nice guy. Plus I had to admit, he did look handsome right now.

“I’ve been better. It seems that things have changed. I just didn’t know how much they would,” I admitted. I didn’t think that I would scare off my boyfriend. That’s not what I signed up for.

“What happened? I mean, I know the change is weird at first, but I thought things would go okay. Did it have to do with the boyfriend?” he asked.

I blushed. I didn’t know what he would think when I told him about my issues. Donte seemed reasonable, but then again I didn’t know what was going through his head. I was worried that he might think I’m an idiot or something. I highly doubted it, but still.

I shook my head in assent. “Yeah, but that’s the least of my issues. I’m a bit worried about a few things. One of them being what do I do now,” I said.

He looked at me with a gaze that seemed to understand what I was going through. Did he have something like this happen to him in the past as well? I mean, it was almost too good to be true if he understood what I was going through. He would be able to provide solace for me.

“Well I do. I mean, when I first changed I lost everything. All of the things that were normal in my life seemed to become abnormal. I thought it was just my imagination, but it wasn’t. Life does change when you’re changed, but it depends upon how much you want it to change. Sometimes, a little change can be good. Other times, it can be hell on earth. For me, it was a bit of both. I lost everything, but then I realized I have the power to help other vampires. Plus, when you learn some of the skills that you have it’s pretty damn cool,” he admitted.

I wanted to believe him, to think that it did get better from here. But I felt like my life was slowly unraveling in front of me. I hated it, and I knew that it was definitely not going to be easy from here. Maybe it would get better, but I was still unsure.

“What do you think we should do now? I have a lot of stuff that I need to think about,” I stated.

“Well for one, I want to get you out of the open. You’re in a very dangerous place Alice. You might think you’re safe, but I can assure you that a vampire can see you from a mile away,” he admonished.

Damn, I never thought that they would be that skilled. I just thought that most vampires were able to see in detail. I didn’t think I was that obvious.

“Sh*t really? I didn’t know that,” I said.

“Well to be honest, I’m shocked that Raphael didn’t find you. It’s a bit foolish to be out here like this, but I know that you didn’t have a choice. You were out here on your own because you didn’t know what to do. I’ll ask you about what happened later. For now, we need to find a place to hide,” he said.

I agreed. I didn’t feel safe out here now. I felt like all eyes were on me, even though it seemed like they weren’t. There was only one option on where to go now.